Before Olivia came into my life, I was sternly told not to lose myself: Go out. Find time for yourself. Relax. Relaxing is overrated when you have a nine-month old. I am never alone and haven't been alone for almost 2 years. Just going to the bathroom has become a spectator's sport. Because my bathroom now smells like roses, Olivia has crawled to my feet, looks up at me, smiles and giggles. Now the chihuahuas are in the bathroom with us. Olivia is screaming and playing with them. Marley and Emma are jumping on her, jumping on me and before I know it, what was about to go down, has now crawled back up. Yes, while this is not the cutest smelling story, that is life, that is my life, and the life of many other mommies out there.
Since I graduated from college back in 2008, I have had difficulty finding my place in this world. One thing I know for sure, motherhood is a part of me and was always supposed to be. I wouldn't trade this life for any other, and I truly mean this. Yet, in terms of a career, I haven't found my stride. I've dabbled in this and that jobs but nothing that has tugged at my heart strings. I have been stuck in this rut. I have always said, things have a funny way of working themselves out. It may make you crazy or even gain a couple gray hairs, but things will work out. Recently, a friend posted a link on Facebook about a "Mommy Makeover" contest. Sign me up, I thought! With enthusiasm, I sent in my best letter of why they should pick me and along with 5 other girls, we were selected for U&Me Magazine's First annual Mommy Makeover Contest. I'm soooo excited and I just can't hide it...! This truly is the kick in the ass I need to feel empowered, work on my fitness and nutrition goals, and meet some really amazing people. Did I mention I was excited? This lifestyle overhaul includes a makeover, prepared meals delivered to my door from Fit2Go, nutrition guru Kathleen Szczech, and much more. I am very thankful U&Me magazine has chosen me, along with my new friends. I want to take this opportunity by the horns and run with it!
I have a laundry pile as far as the eye can see, an endless supply of bottles and dirty dishes, floors to clean daily, and I still haven't landed my dream job. I have a giant pimple on my forehead, my hair is covered in Mum-Mum crumbs, and today I've changed more caca diapers than my garbage can hold, but for now, I am simply going to enjoy Olivia and my pups. I'll worry about everything else at a later time. I'm going to inhale this amazing life I lead and exhale the negatives. While some days I may be tired and cranky, today is not one of them. I can choose to be bothered by things or smile at everything else. Ultimately, it is my decision. I choose to be happy. In life, we all dictate the roads we choose. While there may be bumps in our paths, it is how we choose to challenge these unfortunate problems in our lives that can make or break our spirits. I choose happiness. I choose life. I choose to smile. When life gets the best of me all I have to do is look at Olivia, tell her how much I love her in my most high-pitched, squeaky voice, and in return I always get a crooked, toothy grin that knows true love when she hears it.
Congratulations to all the winners in the Mommy Makeover contest. :)
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